It's annoying but the truth is, you can rip my heart out and throw it to the ground. I'd pick it up, dust it...and give it back to you.

I'm just asking for it by looking at the photos. I'm totally asking for it. GAH.

As long as I still feel something, it's not over. Believe me, sometimes I wish it was, but it's not. I can feel it. I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.

I doubt he can ever comprehend the hold he has on me.

I don’t want to like you anymore and I just can't. I just effing can't.

There's seriously something about him that makes me like him so much.

I listed a million things that were wrong with you, all the imperfections, any and every possible flaw I could think of, even conjure up.

Since I met him there was something about him that makes me go absolutely crazy over him.

My girlfriend can probably doodle on your picture, make you look silly and gay and I'd still love how you look.

I hate how I cannot keep a boyfriend only because I keep comparing them to you.

I’m scared.

I'm afraid because I don't want anyone else to have your heart but I know she got it. I know she does, once before.

I just don't know if she still has it and that's exactly what keeps me going. The possibility that she doesn't hold your heart anymore.

What's a few more months when I've been at in for 3 years?

Then again, there's this recent nagging feeling that I can finally move on. Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

So, hello new boy, if you step up, I think you just might be able to break that wall. If you cared enough to, that is. You can because I will let you.

(Sheesh, if he happens to come across this post, I'm screwed.)

Well, he's not exactly new to the scene. My girlfriends certainly heard of him. A couple of times in fact so perhaps new is not the word.

It's funny how I refer to people as A, B, C, often going by initials (If Girl A then Boy B yada yada) in an attempt to uhhh so called protect the person's identity but eventually giving the game away like ARGGGH OKAY HIS NAME IS XXX YAH IT'S HIM OR IT'S THAT GIRL XXX THE ONE WHO ALWAYS ETC ETC. LOL.

Anyhoos perhaps, maybe, I don't know.

I love complicated people. It keeps me on my toes. I hate complicated people, they drive me nuts. It's a love hate relationship with complications.

AYE WHATEVER. Late hours must be getting to me.

I've got a GP exam tomorrow and this is how I prepare for it:

By mulling over life's nonsense.

On a second thought, make that self generated fuss and nonsense.
you know you LOVE me (:
XOXO
♥